Monday, June 29, 2009

Growing into Myself

Assignment 1.1

Writing this paper has been an eclipse. Reading my classmate essay has shown me that it is very hard for me to share personal things about myself. It was a time of “Fire” by the Ohio Players and Jaws. The eclipses in my life had come back to back. Similar to Dillard they were “Total Eclipse”, and my knowledge could not be used as a reference.

And, at times, I wonder if I am still recovering. I felt the total eclipse when I was betrayed by my internal family. I call it the Ultimate Betrayal. I often ask myself why me. Why do I have to go through so much in life? I look deep, to understand, what is it, I’m to learn. I ask myself, what is it, what is the lesson? Looking and looking, what am I to see? "Only an extraordinary act of will could recall to us our former, living selves and our contexts in matter and time". (163)

During those moments of pressure, I wait for the sun light to appear. Where is my sun light? When will the change come? When will the change come of being a part of the loving unit of family? I never wanted to be the outsider; it was pressed upon me. Pressed by those who are supposed to protect me and encourage me. "We no sooner saw it than it was upon us". (169)

When will change come? I waited but no change. I reconsider but no change. I have grown up and out of ignorance and no change. "We have so masered the transition we have forgotten we ever learned it. Yet, it is a transition we make a hundred times a day, as, like so many will-less dolphins, we plunge and surface, lapse and emerge. We live half our waking lives and all of our sleeping lives in some private, useless, and insensible waters we never mention or recall. Useless, I say. Valueless, I might add - until someone hauls their wealth up to the surface and into the wide-awake city, in a form that people can us". (168) Now it is time to change myself and to walk me, to talk me and be me. There is no time to be subjective to negative energy, no more being the outsider. The change has come of being set free.

I can see a glimpse of the sun rising.

Overview

ASSIGNMENT 1.2

The essay by Annie Dillard title “Total Eclipse” was created in a unique style that leads the reader to question the primary point to her style of writing. The introduction had no coherence as seen in many customary written essays. Neither, the body structure had a universal unity. What emerges is random and haphazard detail statement of reference of pass memories, inferences, or detailed descriptions of the current moment. In the beginning, the writer drifts from topic to topic but not having any reference to combine either topic.

There were paragraphs after paragraph that gave vivid detail memories of her pass and associations of her knowledge. Every detail was remembered and described specify. Tailored memories of a regular life that general people would take for granted. One idea leads to the next idea in a general way yet the associations were intense of regular sites seen in everyday life. All of the descriptions of the details were on route through the mountains of Washington.

The setting of the story took place on a drive though the Mountains of Washington. The mountains structure of the west where the hills and valleys are for the skilled driver. As one goes thought the mountains the scenery changes from altitude to altitude. It starts with mounts of snow that can cause an avalanche and less to green pastors.

It appears that the character and her husband were on a trip to see a complete eclipse. A total eclipse is seeing the entire surface of an area body covered. It was something they both had seen in the pass but this time around, it was different. Seeing this total eclipse would be very different.

The story finally came together in an abstract or indirect manner despite the collections of the random statements of reference of pass memories, inferences, and detailed descriptions of the present. The abstract manner could possibly communicate a different message to every reader. This is possible through one’s own knowledge, experiences, and awareness. Yet instill, what was the writer’s main purpose for this writing?

I view her story as a symbolic writing that uses references, inferences, and abstractions to relay very important ideas, which cannot easily be discussed. Topics that are not politically correct. Things that would make most people feel uncomfortable. It is difficult to talk about what ones may or may not believe as a driving motivator. How does society discuss uncomfortable subjects with the general population?

“Total Eclipse” is an amazing work of art. She manages to capture the foundation to reach and question ones personal grown. It questions the achievement of one's full potential through creativity, independence, spontaneity, and a grasp of the real world. The essay format obscurities allow one to wonder into the possibilities of questioning.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Who I am

Hello my Name is Tammie Fowler presently,I am a accounting major and looking forward to finishing a degree. There is not a lot to say about myself expect I enjoy music, story telling, art, plays, anything artistic to the fullest. Ya, I enjoy other things too like basketball, especially the play-offs. I prefer a laded back atmosphere, puppies, and a warm summer day.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Annie Dillad "Total Eclipse" Essay

Assignment 1

Annie Dillard Essay “Total Eclipse” is an amazing work of art. She manages to capture the basic foundations of reaching or achieving the self actualization most people only dream.

She has attempted and succeeds in questioning the foundation of one’s belief system. In more cases than not, the belief system is a combination of traditions and knowledge. The pending questions that weigh heavy and rock every individual is whats' most important, knowledge or traditions.

I view her story as a symbolic writing that uses references, inferences, and abstractions to relay very important idea which cannot easily be discussed. It is difficult to talk about what one may or may not believe as a driving motivator. She has managed to evoke ideas which run, bounce, and peck the interest of those whom are willing to open up to those simple ideas.